“Says He’s Held Up With Holding On And On And On And On And On”

I hope he’s who you say he is,
Your knight in shining armor
Your prince on a pedestal
The best decision of your life.
Cause I’ve choked on these words for so many nights,
And now they’re choking me up.
The things you’ll never know
The things I never told you.
Those nights…
Those nights we were young,
We’d walk the empty streets and sing our favorite songs.
Those nights we’d sit on the curb and smoke cigarettes.
We were all we needed to be.
Well I just needed you to know that…
The nights laced with electricity and life,
They will be the only thing I take with me, forever.
So when you look back on the things you’ve done,
And the decisions you’ve made
Think of me.
And those nights.
Cause I’ll be laying in my bed face up,
And thinking of your smile.
So when he tells you
“This won’t mean a thing…”
Remember he’s who you wanted.
And for the record,
“I’m held up with holding on”
So may you achieve everything you’ve ever wanted
And if you can…
Never look back.
Cause when you do,
You’ll see the person you left behind.

Says he's held up with holding on and on and on and on and on

"I've choked on these words for so many nights, and now they're choking me up"  I wrote that line about a year or two ago and for some reason they still ring quite true.  Its funny how we can only run for so long.  I've been thinking about this girl again, the one that I always blog about.  The girl I'm always bitching about.  And its like a fucking disease.  For some reason she just always creeps into my life in some way or another.  And the best part is it's always in a strange subliminal way.  For example lately all I've been listening to is tell all your friends by taking back Sunday.  Now I've been spinnin that record since I was probably 15 maybe 16 years old.  Don't get me wrong, its a good record, but I couldn't fucking stop listening to it.  And tonight I figured out why.  It was that summer I laid eyes on the woman that would haunt me the rest of my life.  The woman that I was damned to love.  you'll never know.  And I'll never have you.  But those nights, they were th best nights of my life.  Those nights we were young.  Those nights we'd walk the lonely streets and sing our favorite songs.  Those nights that we'd sit on curbs and smoke cigarettes.  Those nights...those nights when all we were was all we needed to be.  Well I just needed you to know that, those night.  Those nights laced with electricity and magic, those nights will be all I take with me, Forever.  So when you look back on the things you've done, and the decisions you've made.  Think of me and think of those nights, because I'll be laying down in my bed face up, awake, thinking of your smile.  So when things get hard, and he says he never loved you.  Remember, I did.  And when he says ""this won’t mean a thing come tomorrow, Cause I'm still not sleeping, thinking I’ve crawled home from worse than this."  Remember that he's who you wanted.  And For the record, I'm done.  I'm held up with holding on.  May you achieve everything you've ever wanted, and if you can, never look back, cause when you do...You'll see all the people you left behind.