Happy Birthday

I drove out to that park that used to be ours.
It's fall now and all the leaves
have died and fallen to the ground.
There was a young couple parked,
they reminded me of us
some time ago.
I don't know what I thought
I'd find here.
In a way I just got into the car
and it felt like I was driving home,
like the car was guiding me here.
I don't know how long it's been
since we last spoke.
I think about you less,
but a piece of me still misses you.
I wish I could have been better.
I wish I didn't feel so broken and alone.
I always used some clever line
or some song to express how I felt
but now I know it wasn't genuine.
So I'm writing you this letter knowing
you'll never read it, but hoping you'll understand.
And by the way, I didn't forget,
I just didn't have the courage to tell you;
happy birthday.